Dodged Another Bullet

I keep getting lucky.

Last Saturday, I twisted my knee and I thought I tore a ligament. So I limped my way through the malls, the meet-ups with friends. I crawled my way through the day, I injured my left knee so it didn't affect my driving.

I couldn't sleep last Saturday then the impending doom feeling came and I felt like I couldn't recover. Maybe it's time to retire the racket?

Then I woke up this morning, feeling a hundred percent better.

Good Mood Runneth Over

When I am at a crossroads, I drive my car to run away from it, but when I want to deal with it, I walk and sometimes I even run. I haven't been able to keep my weight down because of school and work, my decision to stop school temporarily has since paid off, I am beginning to lose weight once more. My knees are a bit rusty, but I know I can regain the stamina and endurance I worked hard to build before this shift to a sedentary lifestyle.

I don't want to let go of this endorphin high. :)

Two Years Ago, A Tribute

Today, I decided to listen to this song, a sort of tribute to a history that almost burned me alive about two years ago. I remember the drama and everything else that went along with it. It's strange to remember these things. Sometimes I wish I had an erase button, or a cat litter to bury it under. And yet, these are the battle scars that lead to the understanding, of "Now, you know better."

Possession

Sarah Mchlachlan

Listen as the wind blows
From across the great divide
Voices trapped in yearning
Memories trapped in time
The night is my companion
And solitude my guide
Would I spend forever here
And not be satisfied

And I would be the one
To hold you down
Kiss you so hard
I’ll take your breath away
And after I’d wipe away the tears
Just close your eyes dear

Through this world I’ve stumbled
So many times betrayed
Trying to find an honest word
To find the truth enslaved
Oh you speak to me in riddles and
You speak to me in rhymes
My body aches to breathe your breath
You words keep me alive

And I would be the one
To hold you down
Kiss you so hard
I’ll take your breath away
And after I’d wipe away the tears
Just close your eyes dear

Into this night I wander
It’s morning that I dread
Another day of knowing of
The path I fear to tread
Oh into the sea of waking dreams
I follow without pride
Nothing stands between us here
And I won’t be denied

And I would be the one
To hold you down
Kiss you so hard
I’ll take your breath away
And after I’d wipe away the tears
Just close your eyes dear

So maybe this Susan didn't figure it out right away, but then again, who would take the time to?